It’s been a back-to-basics kind of week for me. I won’t get into the events, times, and places of what caused my otherwise positive outlook to have it’s foundations shaken other than to say that; yes, my positive foundations were shaken a little bit recently.
I don’t feel helpless because I am not helpless, nor do I feel like I am alone, because I am not alone. The truth I find myself repeating is that the undisclosed shitty situation that is happening is not happening TO me. If anything it’s happening FOR me and the people involved – especially the person at the center of the mess.
We cannot change the events that have taken place. I cannot live in a place of “what-if’s” or “if I had known’s” because that time has passed. I also cannot live in the future “when all of this is behind us” where “time heals all wounds” because that is all a fantasy if I am (we are, respectively) not digging in and doing the work that needs to be done now.
The time now is to address things head-on, and set up the practice, the discipline, the frame work for success. If you want your plants to grow, they need the proper food and water, care and attention and grooming – but they also need to be planted in the right sized pot until growth has made a larger pot necessary.
So this is what’s next – framework for success.
I’ve done it before and I’ll do it again and again and again and again. It’s 100% worth the struggle and I am to show the people closest to me exactly how to set yourself up for success. The right fuel, the right amount of sleep, the right kind of directed work, and – the right kind of rest.
But right now; here in this shitty moment, I fully realize that this shitty moment deserves the same level of respect that it’s it’s jubilant, solemn, meditative, optimistic, and frivolous siblings deserve. My entire life has led me here, even though I know this is not where my entire life ends.
It’s fucking terrible.
But it will be amazing… and it’s already better than it was.
The Conscious Pilgrim 