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can’t buy happiness

“That little phrase that more often than not used to make ourselves (or other people) change their feelings around a financial decision, a missed opportunity, or even some financial frustration comes from an unlikely place.”

We’ve all heard it, we’ve probably even said it, but this “money can’t buy happiness” needs to at least be put back into it’s original context if we’re going to insist on repeating it.

That little phrase that more often than not used to make ourselves (or other people) change their feelings around a financial decision, a missed opportunity, or even some financial frustration comes from an unlikely place. The phrase was originally used to encourage people who were already financially well-off to consider parting with some of their earnings to help the unfortunate. To say “money can’t buy happiness” would infer that happiness comes from good deeds and acts of service more than it does from the hoarding of wealth. Somewhere along the line, things got a little muddled.

In truth, studies have shown that if an individual were to make $75,000 annually, they could comfortably afford to be happy. That range seems to cap our around $95,000 annually, as similar studies have shown that people making over $105,000 had similar levels of happiness to those making $95,000.

Below these figures, where most of us reside, happiness can still be achieved of course, but not without the caveat of some level of financial stress or struggle. To be in the aforementioned income bracket would mean that care-free living would be attainable.

Money is energy, and frankly, you’re gonna need some. Wanting and working toward these things is not faux pas. Setting financial goals is excellent, and the stigma around money… how much you have… how much you need… how much your borrow… all that needs to stop in order for all of us to embrace life as we want to live it – easier said than done in a capitalist North America.

To flip that… Energy is currency, and the way we carry ourselves and what we invest our loving efforts into has value as well. I’m in no position to tell anyone how their life should be led, but I will say that any shame around our artistic endeavors shouldn’t have any more shame than our work schedules, which shouldn’t have any more shame than our family time, which shouldn’t have any more shame than our alone time. Every one of us is trying to balance life in the most fruitful way possible, and putting up a veneer of our hashtag-best-life is exhausting, and honestly is a distraction from what it’s really important.

There is no shame in your goals, whatever they may be.

Reaching those goals WILL require you to do something different than you’re doing right now, though… and change can be really uncomfortable, but discomfort is a catalyst for change. Pressure causes all manner of beauty, from wildflowers to thunderstorms, from diamonds to puppies… but it’s nothing you can’t handle.

Training this week has been a real trip. I can feel myself getting stronger. I’ve been really clamping down on my food intake as I’m trying to really optimize my body right now and I’m seeing some exciting changes. Race day is coming up quick and I’m feeling ready.

Today, I’m on the road, and I’m graced with the opportunity to traverse a different set of trails than my home town can offer me. I’m fortunate to be in a position to not have to travel to the next town tonight, as playing the same venue 2 nights in a row is a rare treat in this day & age.

As I post this, I am in Grande Prairie, AB and I’ll be performing at the Grande Yellowhead Casino with Robin Kelly. If you’re in the area, swing by tonight!

enough protein

“A couple weeks back I recently posted a blog about protein sources in relation to joint inflammation and capped it off with a statement about getting enough protein, and what that means…”

A couple weeks back I recently posted a blog about protein sources in relation to joint inflammation and capped it off with a statement about getting enough protein, and what that means. What you don’t know about me is that I’m good (enough) with math, especially if that math is going to make my workouts more effective and my life more comfortable. Consider this an entry-level guide, and feel free to reach out through the website for clarification, questions, or anything I’ve missed. Hey! you can straight up correct me if you like…

What protein does: The body uses it to repair muscle and bone, and to make enzymes & hormones. Important stuff.

The Bare Minimum:
Let’s start here. A sedentary person (no discernable physical activity) is still going to need the minimal healthy amount of protein, and it’s not an impossible target. As a general rule, 0.35g for every pound your body weighs.
(body weight) x 0.35g = protein intake

Body Builders & Power Lifters:
These folks reside on the other end of the spectrum from sedentary people. Quite often you’ll see recommendations for 1.0g per pound of bodyweight in your google searches – this advice is often specific to people looking to build a lot of muscle.
(body weight) x 1.0g = protein intake

The Rest Of Us:
Then there’s; what I assume, is you & me. Personally, I shoot for 0.55g per pound of body weight, which puts me just under 100g of protein per day. The reason you might think that is a low number is because I have a total calorie threshold, and because I need to prioritize simple carbohydrates because carbohydrates are the body’s preferred fuel source and I burn a lot of fuel on long runs.
(body weight) x 0.65g = protein intake
You might be aiming to build muscle, but not bodybuilder muscle. Try 0.75b/lb or 0.70b/lb. Your body is going to take a bit of time to adjust to increases, so a gradual build is ideal.

*** Note that increases in protein; even incremental small ones, can cause gas. There’s an adjustment period and no, you won’t always smell like that.

Calorie Deficit:
That calorie threshold I just mentioned is a slight deficit, because I am aiming to burn a bit more belly fat as I progress, here. Calories (kCal) are a unit of measurement for energy in food. My body requires a certain amount of calories in order to function the way I expect it to, and I intentionally eat a little bit less than that so that I can use up some of the stored energy I’ve got – fat cells are that storage.

If you’re new to this idea, there’s a method of determining what a suitable deficit is in order to burn fat. I’ve found the Macro Calculator at HealthyEater.com very helpful over the past few years – I recommend reading the calculation breakdown at the bottom of the page. I also recommend cronometer.com as they’ve developed a great database and user friendly app that takes a lot of the guess work out – it works both on a smart phone and a traditional computer. The free version does plenty!

Solving the puzzle:
There’s a couple important pieces of info to remember here.
#1: The only way to be sure of what you’re eating is to measure it. People will tell you that you’re nuts (trust me) but if you’re going to track macronutrients, and say that you ate 50g of walnuts or half cup of blueberries, you’re going to need to make sure that’s true. Get a kitchen scale and some measuring cups, and don’t worry about the people who question it. ‘Plateauing’ is when you stop seeing results, but 9 times out of 10, it’s happening because of food that’s being eaten without being accounted for.
#2: If you’re trying to burn fat and keep the muscle you currently have, you’re going to need to so some thorough (but not super-intense) resistance training (weight lifting). You need to tell you muscles “I still need you” because when your body starts utilizing the reserves, it’s going to burn anything not being used – including muscle.

In the coming weeks, I’ll be sure to touch on fats & carbohydrates as well as some essential vitamins and minerals. Don’t worry though, there’s still bound to be some of the psychological self-reflection you’ve come to know & love as we work through!

Training this week has been intense. We’re now 3 weeks out from race day, and at the height of our training program here in the next week or so. It’s at this point that I start wanting to build the program that will see us through to the fall. My low & slow runs are essentially twice a week now, on Sunday & Thursday… which means Thursday morning I’ll be jogging all the way to work and expecting to be able to navigate the work day after that. Wish me luck!

A while back I posted about post-event fatigue and although I do aim to take a couple rest days after the Edmonton half-marathon, I don’t aim to stay in the ‘funk’ that often sets in after that. That means having a plan and a goal, so I’m sure I’ll be posting about that as it comes together.

We have a long term goal that will take our focus – it’s happening 12 months from now though, so we’re going to need a few things to carry us through and hold our pattern of progression through till then, because although I haven’t posted what that long term goal is, I assure you it’s a lofty one. What I will say is that we’re building a team, and trying to hand-pick those folks based on a few common traits.

you’re crazy

“As much as I try to stay stoic and live my life for me, according to my own code of ethics and moral compass, there are people around who still seem to concern themselves with what I’m doing and how I’m doing it…”

Not to put too fine of a point on it, but every good decision I’ve ever made in my life has been the subject of some scrutiny, whereas the more questionable decisions I’ve made have never been brought up… Weird, right?

My first, second, and third juice fasts back in 2014: You’re crazy
Weighing and measuring everything I eat: You’re crazy
My obese self doing a couch-to-5k program: You’re crazy
Losing 166 lbs: You’re crazy
Going vegan: You’re crazy
Training for a triathlon: You’re crazy
Training for half marathon: You’re crazy
Taking my writing and art more seriously into my 40s: You’re crazy

As much as I try to stay stoic and live my life for me, according to my own code of ethics and moral compass, there are people around who still seem to concern themselves with what I’m doing and how I’m doing it – but in truth I’m learning that if those people on the periphery think I’m crazy, then one of two things is true:
1) I actually am crazy
2) The proclamation that I’m crazy should be taken as affirmation.
… perhaps both.

I know I shouldn’t let these things bother me, but I also know that’s not always as easy to do as it is to say. Sometimes the critics sneak one past the goalie, and I have to acknowledge it and move past it. Ignoring it just means I’ll have to face it later, but I’d rather address it and properly dismiss that kind of criticism.

Now, I don’t mean to self-aggrandize, and I am not aiming to be melodramatic, either. That list of crazy stuff I’ve done is (a) not complete, and (b) not a list of things that happened overnight. It took years for me to get where I am and it’s going to take the rest of my life for me to get where I am going – but we need to live here & now, in this moment. That means I need to do what’s best for me today, and if taking action like that is so uncommon that it needs to be labelled ‘crazy…‘

… then I’ll take crazy any day of the week.

On a deeper level, I believe we label what we can’t understand, and that those labels become limitations. Using the aforementioned scenario as an example, some people have labeled my lifestyle as ‘crazy’ and thus have provided themselves with an excuse to never try it. They don’t have to understand it because they have filed it away under ‘do not attempt.’ I do a pretty good job of not letting things like this eat away at me, because I truly love where I’m at, and if someone chooses to take issue with what I’m doing, it’s their issue to resolve. Suppressing myself is disrespectful because we honor each other by offering the best of ourselves.

Chances are pretty good that if you’ve stumbled across this blog and this resonates with you, then you’re going through some changes and adaptations as well – so I’ll take opportunity to say that so long as you’re making yourself better and you’re not hurting anyone: you’re not crazy. You’re awesome.

Training this week has been really great. We’re a month out from race day and I’m feeling really strong and really prosperous. Prosperity has been a big word in our house as of late, so I’m not taking that one lightly.

Training in the river valley trails is pure magic. The hills and terrain have been their own challenge, and I believe it’s preparing me for this largely flat-land, paved race and giving me the edge and the confidence I need to make a solid go of it. I’m excited to rise to this challenge and I’m excited that there will still be a few months of solid outdoor running weather after this challenge is met. I’m making plans to stay in a state of progress beyond this half-marathon.

My band Confusionaires plays at the Taste Of Edmonton festival on Monday night. If you’re in the Edmonton area, aim to be there by 8:30pm. It’s free to attend.

in the long run

Endurance training, Eagles lyrics, and b-grade running jokes aside, I’ve done more than just a little contemplation about the series of events that got me here. I’ve said before that every event in life has brought you up to this moment, and I believe that, but I also believe that we have a bit of selective memory when it comes to certain events. When you’re “in the thick of it” it can be hard to be objective – and that’s true of everything from running to arguing over who’s turn it is to do the dishes.

I genuinely try to live in the moment, and to fully immerse myself in what I’m doing and experiencing as it happens – I believe this is part of what makes me a proficient performer, and it’s why I want to spend as much time in nature as possible. When your surroundings are important, you tend to make those surroundings the best they can be, and join them as often as possible.

Even though personal reflection is; by definition, NOT living in the moment, I find myself doing that often as well. Like many of us, I’ve blocked out a lot of memories from my younger years that I’m certain are painful, and I think about people in a more positive or negative light than they may deserve. What I know definitively is that the path here has been a difficult one. There have been many mornings spent staring angrily at the scale, questioning my methods, analyzing and overanalyzing, dietary changes, early morning workouts, genuine sadness and self loathing and frustration, moodiness. I’ve spoken to people I love dearly in ways I would never tolerate from anyone, and as much as I owe more apologies than I’ve ever given out, I can say that I am exactly where I am supposed to be right now.

I’ve said so before, but running is very contemplative for me, and if you’re a runner then you can probably relate. I solve all my problems on the trail, either solo or by bouncing them off my girlfriend & running partner. She does the same, but she’s quick to just stop and say “look around us… look what we’re doing… this is prosperity.” I will always defer to that take. It will always be a valid interruption in my self analysis.

Where am I right now? Objectively?
A little pudgy for my liking (though, you might not even notice), I’ve got some grey hair, and some loose skin… and I’m stronger and more immersed in my family, my art, and my fitness regimen than ever before… and I know how to resolve a lil’ pudge.

I’m in the moment and I love it here… even if I don’t always like it.
If ever I need to understand what it is to be in the moment, I look at my dog. He’ll do some of the most frustrating things ever, like pick up a chicken carcass out of the bushes and hold on for dear life. It’ll take me 10 minutes to wrestle it away from him and as soon as it’s gone, he’s back to being my best friend. If I could learn how to drop my emotional baggage as fast as him, I’d really have something to write about. When I say he’s my karmic instructor, I’m not joking.

Take this post as an encouragement in your life to stop & smell the roses (to exhaust an already tired cliche). It takes less time than you think, and will enhance your life in immeasurable ways.

Training this week has been tough, but I’m tougher. I am handling the long runs well and really rising to the challenge – the trick for me is getting out the door at the right time so that my morning stays successful. The program adjustments I’ve made have helped a lot, and so far I’ve been on top of it and I don’t aim to slip-up, but 4:30am wake-ups can be a tough go.

The biggest obstacle this week was getting a little too much beautiful weather, which knocked me around a little on Monday morning… but I will take it and enjoy it. And… I will (over)do it again.

My trusty girlfriend and running partner works a job that is not always conducive to early morning runs, but she makes it happen whenever she can and I always appreciate the company and perspective. Running solo is not better or worse – just different, and when I run the Edmonton Half Marathon next month, I’ll be doing it solo (in the physical sense) so maybe this is good conditioning.

… all a matter of perspective, I suppose.

inflammation and running

“Certainly fueling the body to recover more efficiently should also be part of ‘staying out of our own way’ and fortunately enough there are a great number of fruits and vegetables that are synonymous with recovery.”

I’m a runner; and if you knew me 5 years ago when I could barely run to the end of the block without hacking and wheezing, then you understand why to this day it’s a bit shocking to hear my own voice refer to me as such.

The benefits running has brought into my life are numerous, and in conversation, I’ve observed a great number of people have talked about the toll running takes on their knees and ankles. This (and I’ll preface this by stating that I am well aware of the role my perception plays in this statement, AND I know that ever situation is neutral until it’s viewed through the lens of personal opinion), is heartbreaking.

Not to discount the notion that; yes, running is classified as a ‘high impact‘ activity. I’ve been an obese runner in my brief history in the sport, and I am well aware of the perils of repetitive motion injuries – but what if the repetitive motion that was really inhibiting someone’s ability to run or take part in games that involve running had more to do with recovery than it did with motion. We all know that rest is an important part of fitness, and that the body’s ability to recover involves ‘staying out of our own way’ to a certain degree.

What about nutrition, though?

Certainly fueling the body to recover more efficiently should also be part of ‘staying out of our own way’ and fortunately enough there are a great number of fruits and vegetables that are synonymous with recovery. Vitamin D, C, B12, B6 A, E, Magnesium, Zinc, Potassium (to name a few) are all readily available in a number of plant foods, along with the required fiber and carbohydrates that are the body’s preferred fuel source – but what if would happen if someone was overdoing it on protein?

Save for some of the side effects that any heavy lifter can tell you about, namely repugnant flatulence, I’ll try to get a little more specific – so please forgive the science talk as I try to break this down into everyday English, but: protein the the umbrella term we’ve given to the 9 essential amino acids that the human body doesn’t produce (there are another 11 that we do produce, and thus are ‘non-essential’). Now, amino acids are ACIDS, and acid is synonymous with inflammation, and that is true of plant-based sources, as well. The fundamental differences include the presence of fiber in plant-based protein sources allows for better digestion and utilization, and plant sources are lower in branch-chain amino acids which are harder to break down. Animal protein sources are also further up the food chain, meaning that consuming them means consuming the often questionable means by which the animals were raised (i.e. hormones, antibiotics, et al.)

Digestive function is something I know a little less about, but it’s true – a sudden increase in protein makes for a sudden increase in gas, and it doesn’t matter whether it’s a plant or animal source.

Now, I’m not here to make you go vegan, as much as I’d love to see that happen. The merits of this are felt in people who subscribe to a number of diets that are more plant-centric than meat-centric including the Mediterranean diet, vegetarian diet, pescatarian diet, and other ways of eating that make plant-based sources the main event. If this has piqued your curiosity, but has not satisfied it, I’ve included a very informative and scientifically backed video:

‘Enough protein’ is an ongoing conversation between vegans and non-vegans that I don’t feel compelled to get into since this blog post is already long enough by my standards, but I’m sure I can touch on that in the future. Sufficed to say that “getting enough protein” is a priority, to be certain… but what is “enough protein” exactly? Maybe I’ll dig in on that in an upcoming post.

Training this week has seen it’s upticks in challenge, physically. The last few Thursdays, specifically, have incorporated more speed in the focus, which is a departure from the loads of ZONE 2 training I’ve been doing, and continue to do. I feel truly blessed to be able to participate in this sport and in my environment though. This is a true measure of prosperity and I aim to take in every ounce of it that I can in the moment – in real time.

Beyond that is some scheduling conflict and recovery time that needed to be addressed, so I’ve shuffled the training days a little bit. We’re spreading the long runs further apart and moving the shorter & faster runs as well, partly in an effort to keep things flowing optimally, and since my girlfriend does most of the running with me AND works evenings, we’re keeping that in mind.

Race day is getting closer and I am getting excited for my first real solo athlete event ever.

half a second

“On an evolutionary level, humans are very good at recounting danger and trauma, as it’s advantageous for animals like us to be able to identify patterns that represent harm. We focus our attention on terrible events like car crashes roughly 6x longer than we do on works of beauty. We’re wired for disappointment. This is why it’s important for me (and hopefully you) to go out of my way to acknowledge the good in my life…”

When you look yourself in the eye, gazing at your own face in the mirror, and then you say something to yourself, it takes about half a second before you feel those words in your chest. I haven’t pulled out the ol’ stop watch yet, but… it’s quick.

I have a number of practices that I do my very best to maintain, and one of them is building myself up with positive affirmation mantras. Not hopes & dreams so much as goals, and reminders of positive things that are happening all the time.

On an evolutionary level, humans are very good at recounting danger and trauma, as it’s advantageous for animals like us to be able to identify patterns that represent harm. We focus our attention on terrible events like car crashes roughly 6x longer than we do on works of beauty. We’re wired for disappointment. This is why it’s important for me (and hopefully you) to go out of my way to acknowledge the good in my life as a way of balancing trauma, danger, and the vast number of available depressants available to me on any given day. That way, even if my day goes all to Hell; and it can, I know that this day and every day started off from a place of love and embrace, and that tomorrow will, too.

This is the premise of slowing your mind in meditation. You’re capable to blasting through 60,000 to 80,000 thoughts per day (of 2500-3300 per hour) and if we don’t check our baggage every so often, we can really put ourselves through the ringer undeservedly.

The majority of our problems are temporary, but they feel eternal because of our desire to fixate on them. Financial troubles are temporary, illness is temporary, your boss’ bad day is temporary, winter is temporary – but the good times always fly by, don’t they?

That’s a state of mind, and we have the power to change our minds.

Look yourself in the eye some morning and say “I love you.”
It’s a real trip.

Training this week has been an adjustment in a couple different ways, and not in the way you might think.
First off: My running distances at the beginning of this new program are decidedly short compared to distances I like to run. Not to worry though, there’s a method to this madness, as the runs are also substantially more frequent than they were for the triathlon training.
Secondly: We’re officially trail running whenever possible, which is an adjustment due in part to elevation changes, and also because of uneven ground – so we’re working stabilizer muscles that have had a pretty easy ride until now.
Third: I commuted to my day job via bicycle twice this week, which is a habit I aim to maintain. Both days were cross training days, and 45 minutes of cycling each way replaced the prescribed ‘brick’ workouts, but it effectively increased the exercise effort on both days. Traversing the city under your own power is a liberating and addictive thing. (click here for training program)

With the new program; we’re building a new structure and we’re starting in the basement, in that these more frequent and runs will get us used to running on fatigued legs. That might sound a little bonkers, but a half-marathon is pretty far and we will have some tired legs toward the end when it really counts. In the meantime, I’m not too worried about pushing beyond the run distances in the program – at least on my days off when I can really go out and get lost.

And… by mid-June the long runs will be what I’m used to. Then it’ll get nutty in a hurry!

Complaint Recovery

“By design, I’ve regained control of my attention, and thereby my attitude under the belief that mood follows action.”

Since reclaiming my mental acuity and attention from the grip of social media and international news (as talked about in last week’s blog post); a valiant effort and an ongoing temptation still a struggle to renege on, I’ve become keenly aware of how my conduct has changed on the day-to-day.

I’m sure nobody has noticed besides me, but slowing the flow of stress-educing knowledge has ultimately resulted in talking less about such knowledge. I still engage in conversations about current events, but my contributions are lesser in quantity and more in quality. This might be as a result of the slower flow of info, or possibly because I have more time to develop opinions and put them in my own words, but there’s something else that I am doing less:

Complaining.

It’s intentional, and again, it’s likely that people don’t notice, but I feel that my brain has reclaimed my thought process, and is having an easier time organizing my responses in advance of my mouth spitting them out. By design, I’ve regained control of my attention, and thereby my attitude under the belief that ‘mood follows action.’ I’ve limited my exposure to online media, and thereby limited my choices of news sources. The result of fewer choices is more intentional decisions and less option paralysis.

Of course this is all pretty vague, but it is that way by design. If any of this resonates with you, then it probably brings about a specific element in your life you’d like to have a better handle on. For me; in this case, it’s social media (though that’s just the example, this approach has permeated varying aspects of my thinking), but for you it could be anything.

Training this week has been good. These sessions are getting long, and the recent dump of snow has certainly made the commute to & from the gym a little slower despite the use of 4-wheel drive. Alas, it won’t be long until we’re running & biking outdoors, and back in Edmonton’s river valley as frequently as possible. I’m working on the next video, collecting some b-roll footage (though we got in a lil’ trouble for filming at the gym recently). It should be out later in the month.